Giving

One of my goals in life is to be a giving person. Life makes this a difficult goal. It took me some time to find a way to be able to give and stay in balance. Sometimes this becomes a stretch, but I try to give to the world all that I can. Yet I found that I cant give to the world if I give up myself and abandon the tasks that I am faced with.

Another difficult part of giving is being a true giver. I learned early that when you give you receive. At least this is the way it ideally works. But it took me a long time to understand that you don’t give to receive. It is best to give for the sake of giving. Too often people become selfish and self centered in their giving, myself included. We make decisions based on what works best for ourselves.

I try to give when it’s not in my best interest, or better put when it doesn’t give me what I want and/or immediate satisfaction. This is a difficult thing to do. I always seem to hit a wall where I don’t think I can give anymore. I try to focus and look in myself and some how I end up finding that there is still more to give. In doing so, it seems I am helping to cut new paths and better define giving. It is probably one of the hardest things I have ever attempted in my life. Constantly hitting walls in my selfish nature, only to break through to hit a wall again, it’s a lonely path. Yet it has been rewarding. I’m not sure where it will take me.